Twenty seven years ago I had an abortion. I thought I would come out of it free and empowered because I bought the lies of Planned Parenthood and the women's movement who championed my rights wholeheartedly. I was surprised when I immediately fell into a deep depression and months later struggled with thoughts of suicide. The feelings were intense and the sadness was great.
Prior to abortion, I was always happy and handled stress in an exceptional way. But this was different. I had a baby ripped from my womb and felt totally violated. YES..I made that choice. I do take responsibility for that awful choice. This is a choice I know for a fact I would not have taken had abortion been illegal. But I was lied to and caught off guard by the attack my body felt it had been under and I totally felt as if I had been abused emotionally as well following the abortion.
With God's grace..therapy and the blessings of a great family I can say that I am healed...but the scars are there...AND all I can say is watching this election brings up so much. On the one hand I had been waiting fervently for the topic of abortion to come up in the election hoping that those who saw Obama's record on born alive babies would be shocked, disgusted and say to themselves "even though I am liberal I would never vote for a man who would make that kind of judgment."
Well for the most part I am watching people as they worship and elevate a man who advocates the type of victimization and violation that women like myself had to work way too hard to heal within themselves.... There are women who kill themselves post abortion. There are women who remain silent forever and struggle in relationships. There are women who are infertile post abortion...the list goes on..
Imagine... watching OBAMA standing proudly in front of the Planned Parenthood sign or hearing him say "my first act as president with be to sign the Freedom of Choice act".
Imagine knowing that more women will potentially endure what took years to undo to myself and many others like myself. It is as if we are watching the executioner be deified by the entire society thereby minimizing our pain and our suffering.
We watch as more women are led to the slaughter... not even given the proper information or acknowledgment that there is a potential for psychological damage.
I can imagine it is similar to someone who has been raped and has to watch as the rapist is let off to continue raping. And watching the people who know he has raped still inviting him to their christmas and cocktail parties....everytime I see Obama stand up there with the crowd applauding and vowing to put him in the position to sign a bill that will eliminate virtually any limitation on abortion I cringe. I cannot imagine what some of the women who are stuggling more than I are experiencing...
Yes there are women out there who do not regret their abortions..but there are many many like myself. I am not the only one who struggled intensely after aborting their babies. If I didn't believe that Jesus has forgiven me i would be beside myself right now.
Between his not agreeing several times to the born alive protection act...vowing to allow abortions even into the 8th or 9th month, advocating that parents are not notified and saying he wouldn't want his daughter punished with a child.
I am sorry but I will always be looking at Obama and other abortion advocates as the man who opened the door to my pain and continues to hold that door open to the dozens of women who will unknowingly be walking into their depression, anxiety, guilt and regret. THANK YOU PRESIDENT OBAMA for continuing to punish the women who made that mistake while making them watch as their little sisters head into the slaughter.....
People need to realize what they are really doing and what is really happening keeping abortion legal.
People may learn something of great value reading your story.
God Bless you,
Linda